The Dream Home I Didn't Win

I am shocked, absolutely shocked that I didn't win the HGTV Dream Home in the HGTV Dream Home Giveaway.
How did this occur? I entered every day. For weeks. I logged on, and I registered over and over again. And then I wished really, really hard. And someone else won....

I get that the chances of winning must have been the same as being hit by a comet, but it has happened. I mean isn't that how the dinosaurs died?

But seriously, did I really think I could win? No....I mean yes....I mean I knew it was a long shot, but why not me? I mean didn't I win that huge tiger when I was 9? I'm due.

And don't I need a fabulously cool house in Santa Fe? A butt load of money and a car? How great would that have been? But no! I lose....again.

What would that moment be like if I had won? Think of it, some guy on the other end of the phone telling me I won the fabulously cool house in Santa Fe...he, of course, would have to convince me it wasn't one of my son's lame friends having some fun at my expense.....but then what would that moment be like? The one where you realize you have won a fabulously cool house in Santa Fe. It would be so great until you realize you don't live in Santa Fe, and you have no time to commute. And forget the fact I am not cool like the people in Santa Fe, I'm not even as cool as a house in Santa Fe! I would never have blended! I would have been dissed by the welcome wagon.

But the truth is I am ridiculously unlucky. I have actually gotten used to it. So why did I even try to win the fabulously cool house in Santa Fe? Because deep down I think.....maybe... maybe this time.

I have always been intrigued by people who win anything. Maybe I just don't have the confidence to win. Maybe that law of attraction is the real deal. I thought it was like wishing real hard, but maybe there is something to it. I am sure someone somewhere has done a big study on it - thank you stimulus money - but I can tell you this is something we need to get to the bottom of.

But doesn't luck intrigue you? I think to some degree winners get used to winning, they expect to win. They have that swagger thing and it is a confidence thing...they expect good things to happen. When they get up in the morning they think, "what great thing is going to happen to me today?" And put that up against the reaction to life most people have ....dang! It's morning!!

So I think I am going to change my attitude and start attracting some real luck. I am going to expect miracles, and I think I will practice my swagger, because I read that HGTV is deciding where to build their dream home for next year!!