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Sunday, May 25, 2014

Untangling the mysteries of life...

Ever feel this fearless?

I watched an amazing movie this afternoon.  Amazing movies inspire me to do great things.  The movie evoked emotions in me that made me feel powerful.  When I get the feeling I can do anything, over come any obstacle, climb every mountain I have to write it down.

Unfortunately, my default emotion seems to be a bit opposite of "can do." and more like, "that would be great  but here are a million reasons why I can't"

I am kind of living my life backwards.  Instead of starting a business, a hard business, when I was young, eager and really healthy.  I am starting a business as an-almost-senior-citizen with a bad knee and a worse attitude.  Instead of saying, "so what?" I say, "why?"

Why am I doing this?  Why?

The answer to that is simple, we are unemployable-recession-victim-folks with no other options.

So in the words of my uncle when I was afraid to give the eulogy at my mother's funeral..."Donna, get on out there, you are made of better stuff."  Or as my Aunt would say..."Donna get out the butt-kicking machine and get it done."  Tough folks.

The movie I watched today was called "Freedom Writers".  As a person in love with words it really struck a cord.  Their stories told in their words gave them freedom.  They thought no one understood their lives on the streets with drugs and gangs until one teacher showed them a better way.  First she taught them about the holocaust and the biggest gang in the world, and how it started.  The pattern was the same...and they began to see, little by little that other people had problems, terrible problems.  But  they still prevailed.  And so could they, and they did.

Sometimes we see our problems as obstacles we cannot get around.  We need to jump on top of those problems and look around.  From that vantage point we can see what others are going through.

We can:

1.) See we are not alone, the negative voices in your head will always tell you, it is just you - you are the only one with this problem.  For years I thought we were the only ones in the country with money problems.  That's right, all those commercials on TV about mortgage problems were made just for me.  All the self help books in the library?  That's right, written just for me.  No one else needed them.  Being alone with failure is a bad place to be.

2.) See how other people handle their problems.  There aren't a lot of different solutions to problems, it's usually pretty simple...we need to see ones that will help us.

3.) Be an example of success... to show folks not to give up.

For four years I was in charge of about 160 women in my ward (parish, local church, ashram).  It was my stewardship to give them hope and encouragement through illness, marital problems, children problems and financial problems.  I found most situations fell in among those four areas.  I sat with them as they cried and told me there was no hope, no way out, no solution....but if I could get their attention, have them hold their fear at bay.....some could see solutions.  Doors would open, faith once tried was strengthened, and that problem became a strong place in their life going forward.  Facing fear straight on is not a cliche.  I wanted them to grab fear by the lapels.  If they let fear rule their lives, they stayed in the same place, feeling the same negative emotions over and over again.  You have to let go of the side of life's pool and just swim.  It isn't easy to let go... I know because I was not willing to let go for a long, long time.  Going through my head was the well rehearsed negative speak I was great at.

You can't do it

You are too old

What makes you think you know enough to do that?  Who would ever hire you?

Just give up.....don't even try.

A friend would tell me if the voices in your head give you peace then it is truth...If the voices make you anxious or afraid, then it isn't true, it is just a thought and thoughts aren't real.  None of those thoughts ever gave me peace, so I replaced all of them with these;

I can do it.

Since I am older I will be strengthened.  

If I don't know then I will find the solution.

The Lord (universe, higher power) wants me to be a success.  Think about that, the Lord, universe, higher power wants you to be a success!!

And you know what?  I started to feel peace.

There is a dove on my lanai who sits on her eggs no matter what.  She is driven by some intangible instinct to hatch those eggs.   We have had 100 degree heat, 70 mile an hour winds, rain with a few lovely days.  And yet she remains.  There is no doubt about what she is doing to me or to her.  I have not one time wondered if she would still be there.  I know she will,  it has never occurred to me she would give up and fly off and leave those eggs unprotected.  For her failure is not an option.  She puts her obvious fear of humans completely aside to sit on those eggs.  I wondered, "has she ever done this before?  And if so how does she know what to do?"  But she has figured it out and does it...day after day.  And here is her success...


I took a lesson from this sweet bird about overcoming obstacles.

You may have never done it before, so what, do it!

Make a good plan and stay with it....Go BIG!!!

Trust your instincts, trust the light that is in you.

Don't be afraid...no matter how big the dragon (or the human) don't be afraid.

 Had it not been for my time with the women in my ward I never would have been able to see my own insecurities and fears.  I had to confront them in order to start a path to joy.  And they showed me how.  

However it has not been easy.  My default mindspeak is..."give up, sit by the side of the wagon and let the wolves eat you"  and that would be easier.  But growth isn't easy, don't they call it growing pains?

I am living proof that almost-senior-citizens still have growing pains.

Fear be damned....full speed ahead!!






31 comments:

  1. I think it's also helpful if you meditate every day (just a short moment of spare time) so you can let go of stresses and everything that bothers you.

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    1. I do try to meditate because that is so helpful...and I try to do something everyday that I love!! Thank you for reading..we can do this together, I know we can

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  2. Very motivational. Yes, I think growing pains follow us through life. Good line.

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    1. P Bishop I saw you on my google plus thing....I wish I knew what I was doing, thank you for reading and I hope this gets to you!!

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  3. Great article Donna!! You go girl!!

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    1. Darleen you New Mexican Star!! Thank you for reading...I am looking forward to our July date so much!!

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    2. I finally clicked 'notify me' so I see when you reply. I'm looking forward to our July date too!!!

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  4. Those voices in our head can be very powerful. You can do it, girl!

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    1. Thank you Carol...and I appreciate you and everything you write. My life has been edified by our writer/friendship. I still have not figured out how to change the background to my blog....oh well, the day isn't over

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  5. There will always be reasons / excuses but there will always be ways if you find it hard enough. Nice that you are changing gears to a positive mindset.

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    1. I have been changing gears, and I am starting to feel the change...really feel it and not just the fake stuff I usually do. Thank you so much for reading.

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  6. Sometimes i feel that way too that but I just keep moving on especially while on this weight loss journey.

    Michelle F.

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    1. what are doing to lose weight? I am very concerned about my knee, it is a mess and I think if I lose weight that can improve. So what are you doing, and I will join you...

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  7. This is a great motivation post. Your right, Go big!

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    1. Thank you so much!! That is all I want to do, because when one of us does well we all do well.

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  8. This is a great post that will motivate everyone to move forward..

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    1. That is my goal...and the great thing is how much I gain from the whole experience

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  9. Some years ago, my mother said to me, "Marsha, do you realize you will be fifty before you get your degree?" (I was working full time in a very demanding job with lots of travel, etc.) and going to college at night and on weekends.) I just said, "Mom, I will either be fifty with a degree or without one. I choose with one." :)

    someone wiser than I am said, whether you think you can or you think you can't, either way you are right. Godspeed!

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    1. But Marsha, what was it that made you listen to your heart instead of your mom? What had you done in your life to make you immune to that negative speak?

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  10. The movies that you have watched are indeed inspirational and what made them more inspirational is your story.

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    1. thank you, but no one has a better name than you do!! Cococute? I love it!!

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  11. What a beautiful post! It is so important to remember that no matter how we feel, we really aren't alone. I have to learn that lesson over and over and over again. And like you, being RS President somehow solidified it for me almost more than anything else in my life. Something about knowing the difficulties others are facing AND feeling responsible for helping, made me know that someone is always out there willing to help me, too, if I only ask.

    Thanks for sharing!

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    1. I never realized how much I was gaining from that calling. I thought I was just serving, but I was gaining. It wasn't until recently that I could grasp the change I was making and where that was coming from. Thank you my friend...we are one in this aren't we?

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  12. Sometimes you have to be fearless and dive feet 1st!

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    1. Being fearless is my thing...I am going to get there. I really, really am

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  13. Very motivational!

    We all can, we just need to push ourselves and we can change the whole society for good :)

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    1. I heard an amazing speech yesterday, he said if we change the life of 10 people and they change the life of 10 people etc...think of what that will do.

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  14. The power of words are incredible. I bet it felt great to get all those words out of your head and into the screen and make them real. It's a powerful experience for you, and it was a bit for me to reading. To remember that what we say to ourselves matters, and how we say it matters even more. You can do anything!

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    1. Anita, I was so awful in how I spoke to myself...I cannot even describe it. I am getting better....I want to get more words going...more and more and more

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  15. Well, you just pumped me up! And you also made me want to watch that movie…

    =)

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  16. Let's go get them!! We can change the things we want to change...I know we can

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