What I do know is it doesn't matter how much I can do, it only matters that I keep doing what I can and the results will follow. This week was easier because I have seen improvement, and improvement (no matter how small) gives me hope.
- Last Sunday night I realized I wasn't as tired as usual. Tremendous fatigue has plagued me since my surgery so the extra energy is easy to feel.
- My knee doesn't hurt as much as it did.
- I move better and faster....I literally walk faster without thinking about it.
- I inherently know I can do more and now when I have a full day ahead I don't dread it as much as I did.
Another thing I learned about is we all have challenges with exercise and diet. During the focus group for Biometrix the number one thing the other members stated is without the constant support from the trainers and other staff members they wouldn't be doing what they are doing. We all need accountability and support, and I thought it was just me....
This innocuous item is called a wall ball. my children talk about wall balls all the time, it's no big deal, right? But then I did it.
It's easy he said.
Just pick it up and throw it against the wall while you squat he said.
Piece of cake he said.
I took a deep breath and picked that sucker up and as I threw it against the wall my finger got caught in the little tab on the side causing it to go flying behind me the entire length of the gym. As I chased after it I kept thinking,"this isn't how he showed me, this isn't how he showed me, this isn't how he showed me".
You'll notice I did not put that on my bullet list of improvements.
I have been using the kettle bell this week and it makes me feel like I am spraying incense each time I swing it and each time I swing it I wonder the same thing..."whose idea was this?"
I spent time with the dietician earlier in the week where I mentioned I need more accountability.
"What does that look like to you?" he asked.
"A SEAL team with time on their hands and the ability to restrain me in an enclosed area. They will need guns equipped with night vision in case I attempt to eat what I shouldn't, but only when I'm awake."
Food is just a challenge, I eat when I'm hungry, when I'm mad or happy. I eat with friends, alone and with strangers. I eat because I'm bored or I want to avoid something. What can I say? It's a weakness, but weaknesses can become strengths...watch me!
Speaking of sharing and when don't I? What is your favorite healthy snack and best breakfast? Help me write this story...